Where it all began
Unfortunately, like many other women, I was molested as a child and for so many years I believed that I was not worthy of having my voice heard. I felt ashamed, I felt disgusted, I felt like a piece of meat whose feelings or wishes did not matter.
I believed that I was not worthy of having my feelings voiced out if they were to cause any conflict or pain in other people, so I became really good at denying myself every time I said YES when I really wanted to say NO.
Since I believed I was not allowed to say anything that would cause any disagreement, I lost my virginity against my will at my own house while my parents were sleeping upstairs.
I did not have the strength or the permission to yell for help so, I just tried really hard to swallow my tears while he finished it.
My whole body just hurt so much the next day that I could barely stand the 1-hour bus drive to my computer lesson.
The shame, the guilt and the anger towards myself for being so weak and allow that to happen found comfort in the fact that I was not supposed to do anything about that anyway. So my parents never knew about that.
And those ingrain beliefs of not being worthy enough and feeling ashamed for not being strong enough to fight for my own protection haunted me for many years.
And that became who I was.
I was diagnosed with an ovarian cyst and depression and I knew exactly why. My body just could not take it anymore. It was literally having physical symptoms of all of the emotional traumas I've been carrying around for all those years.
I remember crying myself to sleep night after night, silently sobbing so my husband would not notice, asking God to show me the way back to myself because my soul could not take it anymore.
I knew I was destined to be doing something much bigger of my life, other than feeling sorry for myself for what had happened to me in the past. I was done feeling shame, guilt, anger, disgust towards myself and everyone involved and I could not allow myself to keep on emotionally poison my body anymore.
I was ready to look inside and see the REAL Patricia for the first time because the price for living a life based on what other people's beliefs and expectations was unbearable.
So that's when I hired a Life Coach and started digging out my skeletons and slaying them, one by one until I could see who I really was.
Only when I allowed myself to forgive my past and discover who I really was, I was able to choose new, positive and empowering beliefs by falling in love with all parts of myself and discover the true gifts that I have to share with the world.
I found out that I was able to receive clear messages from my Spiritual Guides and steer people in the right direction so they can too, find themselves and live more fulfilled balanced and purposeful lives.
I became so in tune with my Intuition that I am now a Powerful Channeler, with the ability to transform my clients on a soul level so they can too, step into their Purpose.
By finally making peace with my past, I bless it with love and compassion for serving its duty of reminding me that, everything I needed was already within.
All I had to do was to remove my false identity and let my real Soul speak up.
With deep gratitude for sharing my strength with you so you can be reminded of your own.